Self-Image

I’m not quite sure why my idea of what I look like so differs from what is actually there. Years of body image issues I guess. I know I’ve been losing weight (15 pounds since October!) because the scale shows that I’ve lost weight. I wear scrubs to work all the time, so no one else notices, nor do I feel or look any different at work. I guess I’ve noticed some of my shirts fitting a bit looser around the stomach area, but nothing overly drastic. I was having a bit of a pity party. So I went back and tried to find an old photo of me from September. To me, they all looked the same.

I found a few pictures of me in 4 or 5 dresses – I was taking pictures to determine which dress I should wear to a party. I didn’t pick this one

So here’s me in July 09 (don’t mind the grumpy face)

And here’s me in the same dress last night:

Holy change batman! I remember putting the dress on in July. I could barely do it up. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t bend. It felt like it was cutting into my chest (especially under my arms!) Yesterday, I could zip it up with room to spare! The boobage area has obviously and dramatically decreased in size and everything about the dress fits looser. I could even have it taken in.

This was the motivation I needed to keep going. It’s also the motivation I needed to see my body in a different light.

xox

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